Thinking Too Much

I was on the train with a friend today heading home after Kendo. We were discussing a question she had email blasted to a bunch of people and I asked what she thought of my answer.

She appreciated my thoughts and but did agree that it was a borderline thesis answer to a question that could be answered in two or three sentences.

And then she mentioned that I thought too much. It wasn't the first time she said it.

But I thought about it (no pun intended) and realized that I do have a tendency to over analyze things.

My long emails. My at times convoluted explanations and theories on life--much of which I probably don't even live by.

And then she said something that kind of struck me. That because I become overly analytical sometimes that "I don't go for things".

And then I got a little depressed. I felt like that was the old Kevin. The one that didn't go for things. Too scared. Looking for opportunities with the least risk available.

But thinking about it some more, she was right. It might explain why I haven't had a date in 3 years. It might explain why my career is in a phase of inertia right now.

I don't DO DO DO. I just think.

I probably need to be a little less analytical and think just 2 steps ahead instead of 20. Perhaps I need some more recklessness and machismo thinking.

Whatever the case may be, I don't think this post filled with thoughts and self-analysis is helping me reduce the excessively analytical side of me.

Or perhaps I'm totally over reacting.

Oh damn it.